Last Minute Things

I can't believe that in almost two weeks Jon and I will be mommy and daddy. I remember the exact night I found out I was pregnant. It was the Monday before Thanksgiving. I was getting ready for work and took a pregnancy test and nothing showed up, no lines nothing. I figured it was a malfunction and so I left it in my bathroom drawer and went about my day. I had a long, horrible day at work that day and got home really late. It was at least nine or ten when I got home. I went to get a shower and remembered that I had left the pregnancy test in the bathroom drawer, so I thought I would quick open the drawer and see if it had fixed itself or if it was still a malfunctioned test. So I turned it over and there it was staring at me, two pink lines. Right there in my face. Jon got home from work right after me and did all of his business downstairs and finally came up and I told him. He was so excited and I think we were both scared and elated all at the same time. The next few weeks were so scary because we almost lost our little baby so many times, and every doctor we went to told us there was no way we would carry this baby to full term. I remember so many nights just crying because I felt like I was loosing baby. Finally we had made it to thirteen weeks and the perinatologist (the ultrasound specialist) told us the baby was fine and everything would work out well for us. We were so excited that finally we had made it through the first trimester and that we had finally had a good report from someone. With all the good news we were just so excited to finally share our good news with everyone. Then like a freight train had hit us, one night I woke up bleeding so badly that Jon rushed me to the emergency room and as soon as the ER doctor walked in he told us that we had lost the baby. We just sat there and held each other and cried. I will never forget that night for all my life. The doctor told us that he wanted an ultrasound to make sure that my body had passed everything and that I had fully miscarried. After waiting almost 2 hours for the ultrasound, they finally took me back. The ultrasound tech was grouchy and ramy and she was visibly upset. I asked her what the problem was and she said, " Well I don't know what their problem is because there is a heartbeat and it looks like a normal baby to me" I had to pee so badly, but I was so excited again. It was so hard to be excited for us, because every time they told us that everything was great and ok, something else would show up or happen. After that night, we have been problem free and all of our reports were great. At the end of March, my mom and Jon and I went to the perinatologist to find out what we were having. I knew it was a girl. (I think my mom did too) And sure enough, the tech confirmed it was indeed a girl. All along we knew we would name a daughter Sophie or Sophia. We just couldn't decide on a middle name. Please dont ever ask my husband for suggestions on baby names, you will be sorely disappointed if you do ! There are many things he is good at, but naming babies is not one of them. After a little while and about a thousand different names, we finally decided on Sophie Caroline. A nod to our wedding (North Carolina) and my sister Carrie. The past few weeks have included jamming as much as we can in beforeSophie gets here. My mom and sister had a baby shower for us a few weekends ago which was the most amazing day I could have ever imagined. It was just too perfect. The last few weeks Jon and I have been fixing up our house, we redid our hardwood floors and ripped up all the carpeting, so we have finally been able to start putting Sophie's room together and put all her wonderful gifts in their spot for when she finally arrives. I am so excited for her to finally get here and touch her and hold her and smell her. I can't wait to put all her little outfits on her and take pictures. Mostly I can't wait to be her mom and teach her things and take her places and grow together. I remember how much fun I used to have going away with my mom and her friends and I can't wait to do that with Sophie. Tomorrow my mom and I are doing some last minute shopping for Sophie, just picking up odds and ends and getting some material for her crib blankets and bumper. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow morning and its my last one before I have to start going every week. It's all finally coming together, I really can't wait.